Firstly and completely coming from my heart I truly hope everyone is OK during this morbid crisis we are experiencing as THE WORLD – I almost said nation but NO it’s the WORLD — as a species I suppose. I know people have died and will die. I worry every day about health industry (my daughter who is a nurse) service industry all these fine people. But I’m ready for it to be OVER. God I feel as if I’m on a weird movie set just waiting for someone to yell CUT! CUT ALREADY!!!
It was the dream that started all of this.
I had a very bizarre dream last night. I’ve always had very vivid dreams – this dream began as a trip of some sort – I can remember being on a very long plane ride. I had my books, my Baily’s on ice, my itty bitties, friends – when we finally exited from the plane we were in Europe somewhere – maybe Italy. The sun was warm when we walked out of the airport. A feeling of happiness and excitement. I was driven to a lovely home where I unpacked. I then drove the friends who were traveling with me to another location dropped them off but I then realized I couldn’t recall how to get back to the house I was in. Suddenly I realized I’m going to miss my flight home. I frantically tried to find my way back to the house to gather my passport and itty bitties (these are very petite animals I travel with – small stuffed ones- I know I know – eight year old here – ANYWAY)…. at some point the dream morphed into I was part of this family from Victorian times – I was very limited in anything I could do. I was a young girl around 10 maybe. My clothing itched and was uncomfortable. Very strict schedule – I was always looking out the window longing for freedom. When I woke up this morning I let the girls out (my three wee Scotties) made coffee came back to sit in bed and look through my emails texts and social media which is my usual schedule. This dream continued to pop up in my head then I realized I must write about it here on my blog. It’s obvious now – I’m feeling completely TRAPPED!! I know I’m shelter in place in a safe place but for someone who is an extrovert I’m about to go BONKERS.
I am incredulous that we can’t continue our normal lives. I understand how this happened I’m just whiny today and wish for it to be over NOW!!!!! :::hurling myself on the floor and having a proper hissy fit::::::::
For the introverts out there it’s business as usual. Don’t get me wrong – I adore my house. I’m fine being at home for a bit. But for a month??? Please do not let it be MORE. Luckily- I have my wee Scotties running around like banshees which is very comforting. I have my books, my writing projects, tons of movies, YouTube, my art collection, my shoes (thank goodness for shoe shopping right?) I have so many lovely people I have the honor to call friends. Thank goodness for ZOOM and others who are posting videos and shows to keep me entertained (especially new friends Douglas and Dewey who are a GODSEND). I don’t HAVE to be entertained – But I DO need to be around people places and things. I need to travel. And yes – it’s a NEED. I’m hard-wired to GO DO SEE. I get high at the airport – because of all the wonderful people bustling about. I’m very sensitive to people – always have been. As a young child I didn’t understand it – as a 54 year old I now get it – some people are just sensitive in a way others are not. I get people instantly – the good bad and the ugly. The ugly ones I steer clear of – but I get you. Almost like speed reading but not a book its a person. I love people!! At this moment even the ugly ones!!!
I’m a survivor – so I’ll be fine. I wonder how many other extroverts are coping with this caged feeling. The good thing is that I can open the door and go for a walk drive somewhere. I can manage the caged feeling when it peeks.
On a good note – I have many projects I can bury myself into. Writing, videos I’m working on for both business and another project called Two Cab Gab. Just wait! See what I did there – I distracted myself and it worked. I’m smiling now. I’ve always been able to play well by myself – I just REALLY enjoy playing with others! Snap.
Check on your friends – especially the extroverts – we may appear normal and all happy and optimistic – which I am for the most part. But we are still human – and this caged feeling sucks beans. BEANS I TELL YOU!
I feel much better now. Thanks for listening everyone!
If you need me – I am completely here for you. ZOOM is a godsend. Truly.
xxoo and more xxooo from Speckled Egg Cottage in Frog Hollow of Atlanta or my other home Thistle Patch Cottage of Woodlawn in Birmingham. I go between the two secretly. Because I can! :::::bwahahahahah ::::::wiggling toes merrily::::::
Love you mean it.
Oh! The other images I found this morning that reflect some of the weirdness of this shelter in place zone. Good grief please end soon.
I’m a very visual person – I love finding images that reflect mood – Thankfully mine passed quickly this morning – just talking to my dearest one Julesbee (thanks girl love you mean it) and my daughter the Doodle makes me smile. Last night I had a special one pop over for a distanced cocktail ( we were careful I assure you). She has to remain a secret.
it is the strangest time ever. You make it better with your posts! My new house keeps me distracted and so do my dogs. But for someone who likes their daily dose of people encounters, this is hard. Every day I wake up and I’m well and my friends are well, I’m grateful. My yard is lovely to sit in and if I spy my neighbor through my kitchen window I smile knowing there is life on planet earth. Not quite crazy yet, but we’ll see how it goes. Can’t wait to see your new project.